I swear I don’t think there has been one day this year I haven’t thought of you. Was it my fault did I not try hard enough to save us? It’s like I have a puzzle and I solved it but then someone came and took a piece out and that piece was you and now you’re missing. I will never be complete without you. But I am sure you have already moved on and found new friends. And what have I done with my life? Been pretending to be a best friend to someone else when really I’m not, fallen hopelessly in love with the completely wrong person, wasted countless hours in my room by myself staring a at piece of metal and glass and playing on it? You obviously don’t care about me anymore you act like I’m a stranger, 5 years of my life just thrown away. How can you be better friends with people in 2 years than we were in 5? I would have never done that to you, ever. I guess I’ve realized I let you go, and you didn’t come back so we must not have had been ment to last. But it all felt so real, and maybe it was for those 5 years but that’s not how I want to live my life, being best friends with someone for 5 years then having to find someone else. When you told me a long time ago you wanted to go to college in Pennsylvania you don’t know how much I didn’t want you to do that because I never wanted to leave your side. You know I never cry but I cry every time I write a stupid letter like this that I will never send you. Just know I miss you, so much.
