Lily I’ve never said you wished bad on me. Today i was on tiktok with my sister and don’t act like your talking about good karma because I saw what you commented under someone’s post. I literally liked it so I could go back and read it. And I have never put the blame on you for it. How many times even in that damn confession I wrote I take full accountability for it. And I know when I do wrong. I DONT EVER POINT SOMETHING BAD OUT ABOUT YOU. I have constantly told you everything I love about you. I have never talked down on you like you never did anything. I came here to confess the things that made me upset because I didn’t know you went and told ur friends about the summer you said you never could but then everyone knew about my mistakes. I have blamed myself over and over I literally told you that, I wrote that in my notes, I cry to everyone how it’s my fault and I fucked up and if I didn’t think it was my fault I wouldn’t here and hoping and praying you could change your view on me still trying to put in all this efforts. How can you say you wish I hadn’t posyed that when I saw the tiktok you posted today about me. I have been changing for so long just so I can be with you because you of all people I just want you see my growth. You’ve seen me at my absolute worst in every single form ever and I want you to see me at my best with you. I will never gry and convince myself you did wrong to me. If i Can see your progression why can’t you see mine? I never blamed us ending on you when have I ever said that this is your fault we aren’t together I’ve only ever admitted this is on me the countless times I’ve texted you begging for you back apologizing for my actions telling you I’m working on it and need time for it. Don’t say you’ve had enough of me thinking bad of you when I only ever cry about how much good you’ve caused me. You’ve never done bad to me. Things bother me things make me upset and that’s what I wrote about but I don’t think I need to get over her she isn’t even good for me she only hurt me ever. Because it’s not true and it never will be. Writing that to you meant so much to me and all u said was that you threw it away. I thought writing it would mean more to you than trying to yext you through snaochat. Driving to your house to simply leave something behind a bush so you can go and find it later because I just want you so so much to see how much I do want you. I don’t have a poor mentality lily and as weird as it may sound I only try and think me and lily are okay me and lily are going to be together in the future all she needs is time, take this time to work on you as well and be the best I can be because if I think that way I know it’ll happen. And I have been for a while jusy so this could happen and you’d say you wanna text me or call me and whyever and that’s what I’ve been hoping that’s what I’ve been trying to speak into present time. I sleep with the bear every night. I cry on it as if it were you and talk to it as if It were you. I don’t have a point of view of u taking time away from me lily you created that. Saying this time is for you to move on and everything else did you think I didn’t get your voicemail? Because I did. Your sayinf sm s*** now but what u said in ur voicemail just a few days ago doesn’t sound like now. I will always give it time and am I not being patient? I’m being as patient as I can because I told you I’d try my gry best not to text u and u know what you said to me lily. You told me your talking to someone else. I HOPE you can call me and talk to me about it. I know we will fix things. And I hope u j wanna talk about it with me because I miss you so much and I don’t want you to think that I am bashing you and thinking bad about you bc it’s what I have to do because I can’t have that mindset. I’m sure your having your own view on me right now thinking all this but if you do want to talk to me lily I’d love to talk to you. And I’m sorry that you read that because I just wanted to let things out to myself. Even if we don’t talk about it or if you don’t reply i just need you to know I will never think bad of you and I hope you text me or cna even reply