When I was about 14 or 15 years old, I came onto my step-cousin (step moms nephew) and we kissed and made out. He was about 9 or 10 years old. It seemed consensual at the time and it never went beyond kissing. But, later he would keep very far away from me and act coldly towards me as though I did something to him. Also around the same age, I kissed my bff’s brother in a passionate manner, he was about 8 years old. As an adult I have never looked at kids in any way like that, I see them as my son, daughter, niece, nephew etc. But it still freaks me out. Well and one time I was s******* attracted to a very much older looking attractive girl of 14 years old. But I never touched her in any way
