I’m super depressed and no one understands. I’m 22 and have been with my boyfriend for 5 1/2 years. He refuses to move out of his mothers house and is afraid of marriage. All I want is to be engaged to him. And he knows this. I feel as if I’m not worthy and thats why he doesn’t want to be married to me. I secretly think he hates me and is only with me out of pity. I feel inadequate and ugly. I feel like no one is attracted to me anymore and that everyone hates me and thinks I’m some mega super b****. I also feel like peoples lives would be better off without me.