I seen my little nephew aaron have fights with other little kids over toys when he was like 5 or 6 or 7 and he broke a glass door but I didn’t make a big deal out of it.

he cut my clothes and a curtain with scissors and then would bung on an act if I went to tennis without him or would come up behind me out of no where, and give me a b** crush! with his hands around my b**…

I didn’t make a big deal out of things he did because he was just a KID but when I was little PEOPLE CRUCIFIED ME IF DID ANYTHING LIKE THAT OR THEY WOULD ATTACK ME FOR LESS… LIKE I NEVER DID A THING WRONG TO DESERVE DON ATTACKING ME WITH A CRICKET BALL, OTHER THAN ALLOWING BILL TO MOLEST ME… SORRY I DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO STOP HIM MOLESTING ME I WAS JUST A KID OF 4 OR 5… SORRY DON!!! LIKE WHEN I WAS ON THE FARM IN 1976-77 BILL WAS ALWAYS TOUCHING OR FONDLING MY HAIR, OR MOVING ME OVER CLOSER TO HIM. IN THE MORNINGS MY MOTHER AND I WOULD WALK MY OLDER SISTER ROSE TO SCHOOL AND MY YOUNGER BROTHER WOULD BE IN THE PRAM AND THEN WHEN WERE BACK HOME ON THE FARM THERE WAS A ROUTINE OF PUB, OLD BOTTLES TO THE SCOUTS HALL, THE DOGS, THE BACK SHED WATERMELLONS AND I WOULD GO OUT THERE WITH BILL TO HELP, ALREADY HE WAS FOUNDLING ME ABOUT HOLDING ME, MY SISTER AND I WOULD GET UP AND SIT ON HIS BED AT NIGHT AND SOMETIMES SING OR READ BOOKS, DURING THE DAY ALSO, OR HAVE MORNING AND AFTERNOON TEA, FOLD CLOTHES IN THE BEDROOM WHERE THERE WAS AN OLD BIG BED WITH A HUGE MOSTIQUITO NET AND OLD DRESSING TABLE AND HAVE AN AFTERNOON NAP. THEN IT WOULD BE WALK UP TO PICK MY SISTER UP FROM SCHOOL…AND COME HOME AND MAKE DINNER AND MAYBE SOME PLAY AROUND THE FLOWERS IN THE PADOCK IF WE DIDN’T GET CAUGHT AND IN TROUBLE….

SO MUCH THAT I COULD NOT FORGIVE MYSELF FOR BEING A CHILD AND MAKING NORMAL CHILDHOOD MISTAKES, IT LED TO NOT BEING ABLE TO LET ANY LOVE IN AT ALL, NOT THAT ANYONE IMPORTANT WANTED TO KNOW ME OR LIKE ME… I ALWAYS GOT THE OLD UGLIES AND YOBOS PUSHED AT ME…