i was raped. after that s** didnt mean sh*t to me, and i would have s** just to feel loved and wanted…if it werent for my friends id probably b drunk in the street or in a strangers basement. id like to thank my friends that helped me through that..rough patch… im no longer contemplating suicide or always wanting to be f*cked up or being f*cked, and i learned that even tho i might have lost it without meaning, i can still put meaning into it in the future.