My best friend has been going out with this girl for about two years now. As I get closer to her more I feel strong feelings for her. She’s kind of a crazy girl with a lot of baggage and huge daddy issues. Her boyfriend is an extremely intelligent man who lives in a 2d world. This bothers me because hes so rational that he misses the point sometimes. Hes a man when it comes down to it and I respect the s*** out of him I really I do. But his girlfriend walks all over him giving him hints on that fact that he needs to be more of a “stereotypical” man and he doesnt do s*** about it. I guess I kind of admire his lack of desire to be anyone but himself but than my feelings get in the way.
I picture myself having a secret relationship with her where we both acknowledge we are the alphas in our respective relationships. I see myself taking her out on secret dates where I wow her in the ways her man quite possibly cant. I dream of ripping her clothes off and making love to her the way he never could and finally giving a her a nice long passionate kiss right before she walks through the door to see him.
I have no ill feelings towards him I love him for who he is. But I feel such a strong sense of attraction to his girlfriend that it bothers me. I wont act on it, I never will, I refuse to do something so hurtful to someone whos been so great to me all the time. But I actually get scared when I think about how hes going to the military and what happens if he doesnt come back? If hes away for a while will I hollywood it up and “take care” of his girl for him while hes gone? It hurts when I stop thinking about it and realize that Im thinking about it and I dont want to have those thoughts.
