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There are so many racists in this f****** country. F*** you and your f****** b*******. Education, my a**. Civilization, my a**. I’d rather live in a broke-a** village somewhere in South America where people live with respect rather than in this s*** hole of a country. To all Lebanese racists, f*** you and your dumb snob asses. People like you are the f****** reason for half the wars on this planet. I hope something really bad happens to you so your learn you f****** lesson. Is it that hard to ask for respect you f****** retards? Why do you have to ruin our Lebanese name just because you’re a f****** lunatic?

T.A.

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