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Just think of it this way, and never forget it

I did what youre doing for 8 YEARS. Actually mine were strictly kept between me and her in email, I would never have dared to even call her, let alone track down people in her life and medle, I would have been afraid of her, I called her once 14 years ago at aboit 11:00 pm she was sleeping and she ripped me to shreds verbally. She sounded like I was assaulting her "dont you ever call here! DON'T YOU EVER CALL ME HERE! not a single person in the world knew from me what I was going through for those 8 years, alone, she took everything, I had nothing and no one. 8 years, every day, and nice stuff, love, and do you kno what it got me Absolutely nothing. And I really really needed it. Nothing. Took everything, I think she wanted me to die so that I was just out of the way. Basically to end my own misery and she would not have to have a conscience. If I had died, it would have been like an animal that she ran over and just wanted to see the suffering end. I really see it that way.

8 years, and 8 years ago exactly, 6 or so months before we met, I gave up. I got real, decided I litetally couldnt waste nother day of my life on something that probably was never going to happen. I had to get real, and truely give up, and thats what I did, I never looked back and I never will.

No matter what she told you, I quit her long before I showed up at that place, you might not like me, amd thats fine, but you damn well know I never ever talked about it there, and I have not tried since. I have not tried even once, and I never will again.

I would bet the onoy reason you know her, is because I truely gave up on here, and she had to get close enough to me to get what she needed, and she was trying to stir up drama to get a feel on what I was feeling, without me seeing it. I gave up. Thats why. Truely. I really really faced the facts and washed my hands. 8 years. No matter what says I have not so much as tried for contact in 8 years, pretty much exactly. Cigarettes. A bad addiction. I sure as hell am not going back now.  We knew each other, were togetger or talked almost every day for 3 years and then some, just for your info. No matter what she says, Im telling the truth. Spring 2001 – almost spring 2005 was the last contact she gave me. I hung on for 8 more years. Tight. Not a single thing out of her.

You ever see me play guitar? That whole thig is the reason Im so good and I influenced amd moved a lot of people to do things because of my drive. Deep amd powerful. What did that energy get me of her? Thats right, nothing and I am sipl astounded i did yhe math and realized if that cant move her, nothing in the world that I do, could.

Hard as nails amd thats not a good thing. She is dangerous.

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