i am worried about so much things in my life…i want to do so much but i know little, i know nothing to be precise…i want to be a dentist, i want to get in the best university in my country, but why is it so difficult? whhy i didn’t study more in high school? i wished i had done so much more in my life…and now..i am at a so-so uni, going to be a lawyer…and i don’t know if i like this s***!! i have to read so many books, and i want to study to get in the university i want, but the time is so little that i just dont study at all, i go play with my games, my dog, my computer…but oh god…i wished i were a better person…And also, i want to get closer to you god, i am so distant i am so faraway…and yeah i want god in my life, i want him, but at the same time i want to go to clubs dance, and find a bf…yeah…why is it so hard…?? the boy that i am interested seems like he has none in me, idk really, he really doesn’t look at no girl in college, but i only see him when we take the bus together but i don’t know what we can talk about, he never looks at me, he does not smile, but he does not look to really beautiful girls either…..is he gay? but i don’t see him looking at boys that way…idontreallyknow…he’s so weird thinking right now…what if he is a psycho? but i don’t know…iam with headache now…
