My mom has always made it known that my sister is her favorite child. From my childhood, she would always praise my sister and show her off to her friends. Granted, my sister is quite gifted and brilliant. Meanwhile, I’m not as quick and smart as her, and have different approaches to do things so my Mom is always very harsh and critical to me. I couldn’t stand it so much that for college, I specifically chose a university thats far away from my hometown.

Well, in this Corona virus pandemic, I’ve been actively volunteering to distribute hand sanitizers and masks as well as vitamins to various areas of the city. I’ve also made projects to utilize poverty ridden areas to make their own cloth masks by giving them the materials and providing tutorials on how to make them. As part of communication with my mom, I’ve sent her various pictures of my activities so that she wouldn’t worry (she likes to know where I am at all times). This has been going on for 3 weeks, and my mom said or did anything that indicated she approved of what I’ve been doing.

Well, a couple of days ago, my sister whose unemployed decided to use her Biochemistry knowledge (its her major) to volunteer for the city’s laboratory corona virus testing facility. She sent my mom pictures of her outside of the lab with the other staffs and my mom has been posting all over instagram and sending it to our extended family groups, proud as a peacock.

I feel very hurt and dismissed. I wish I could stop feeling angry and pushed aside, its been more than 10 years me feeling like this but I still cant help it.