my cousins had s** on the kitchen floor and they yelled at me, made me afraid and in fear when I was 4, in 1975. I REMEMBER THEN YELLING AT ME TO NOT LOOK AT THEM AND TO STAY BEHIND THE BENCH WHILE THEY FUCKED ON THE FLOOR WHILE BABY SITTING ME. I WAS SO SCARED I WET MY PANTS AND THE FLOOR, THEY YELLED AT ME MORE AND FUCKED AND GROWNED AND GRUNTED LIKE ANIMALS. I SHAKED IN FEAR AND STARED INTO SPACE FEELING STUPID AND AFRAID, THEY HAD A PARTY THERE AT NIGHT AND MADE FUN OF ME AND HURT ME, I WENT TO CORNER IN THE LOUNGE ROOM AND WANTED TO BURY MY HEAD IN THE WALL IN SHAME AND FEELING DIRTY AND BAD AND S******. THEY STILL TREAT ME LIKE I AM S****** … THEY TRIED TO DROWN ME SO I WOULD NOT REMEMBER THEY MASTURBATED ME AND O ONE WANTED TO HELP ME. THEY WANTED ME TO LIKE THIS MAN SO HE COULD ABUSE ME MORE, THEN TOLD ME TO STOP LOOKING AT HIM. SO I HAVE. I HAVE NO FRIENDS, AND WANT TO FIND SOMEONE NEW TO LOVE ME. THEY TOOK EVERYTHING SPECIAL AND BEAUTIFUL FROM ME. THEY STOLE MY YOUTH AND THEY ARE UGLY. THEY CALLED ME UGLY BUT THEY ARE THE UGLY ONES.
