It kind of wild how somethings you dont really pay much attention to at first, like a relationahip given enough time and natural progression of growth in the relationship, can start out as one thing and then something else over the course of years and it changes your perspective of them.
Ive known this woman for over 16 years. We have a bond over something. I wasnt really part of it for a few years, my mind was occupied with so much, I was working on myself, looking at other things and I didn’t put much thought into it. We started getting a bit closer in 2010, basically friends. I needed someone, I reached out and I used her for it. To lean on her. And she is a good natured, easy going, sweet woman, who doesnt really look for things. She always seemed content like she didnt need anything, she has a lot going on. She is a good woman. She is patient and she is good with me. I am not necessarily venting or even really saying much at all when I’m with her sometimes I just want to sit there and be with someone, like most of the friends Ive ever had.
Im just realizing lately that shes perfect. Time does things. I have hurt her in the past, when we first knew each other. She knows that vwas not my intention and thats not my intention now, she forgives me for things, Im not even sure she even had to consciously forgive me and I know she loves me on some level, but Im kind of amazed, it dawned on me tonigt how important she is to me. She is one of the most important people to me ever. I dont get tired of her to where I need a break and I dont feel like I need to be in touch constantly either I hate to say it because shes not to me, but shes like a mom. She will look at me, think I’m not looking good, I’m pale tired, too skinny, whatever and she will thaw out soup or something. Nobody has ever done that for me.
Im just sitting here thinking how much I love her for who she is and how important she is to me vs the first years we knew each other but never really had much to do with each other. I have never seen her angry, her patience and composure is exactly what I love, shes sweet, smart, and beautiful inside and out. Nurturing, she never demands anything, she is not a b****, she is respectful, caring, easy, concerned sometimes, no attitude, there for me and I would trust her with anything.
