before I was raped, I was fisted as a virgin and bled. I can not stand having full vaginal examinations now because of the fear of pain. I hate having pap smears because of the pain. when I was raped I did bled a little as well, there was blood on the bathroom floor where I collapsed after 16 hours of him r***** me. he did not use a condom I was so afraid of stds. as it was I had a vaginal itch on and off with stress when my sister was in hospital using my underwear – I used to cry in self pity wondering how would I be able to explain to a guy “oh I am a 28 year old virgin and small down there but hey I think I have and std” like I felt so embarrassed and had to have tests done. it gets more embarrassing … I will leave those stories for another day.