There’s this professor I’m really attracted to and he has taken a place in all of my professional and s***** fantasies. He’s three times my age, but I’m so drawn to him intellectually, emotionally, and physically that it doesn’t bother me (although it’s a detail my friends like to point out when I bring him up). He’s gay and has this on-and-off boyfriend who’s much younger than him and just moved away. The professor knows I’m interested and has flirted with me. I’m FTM, pre-everything and not even out of the closet yet, but I want to come out to him. He would understand, he would be welcoming. I want him to be the first person who loves me for who I am. I want him to kiss me as passionately as he does in my dreams.