I’m not trying to change the situation, but would you be willing to help me at least understand what exactly it is I did or didn’t do that contributed to how it turned out? I really don’t understand but I would like to so I don’t repeat my mistakes elsewhere . Or was it just one of those things that was just too far gone to fix from the start? I hope it’s OK I’m asking but I’m and would like to try to learn from it at very least