Well, deserve, you know, thats kind of a passive aggressive. I never loved yoo kind of thing when someone says you deserve better thats passive aggressive right?

But the things is its pretty clear to me that you are a person who really does what she wants whenever. I believe if you get married or are married, knowing you, its s******, or swapping, or open, and you do what you want whenever. And thats completely fine, I dont think it will ever change and you will use it while you got it, and you might still got it, I have no idea, maybe you pay fo escorts, but its one of the reasons we are incompatible. Love, whatever, thats kind of easy when its kept away from toxic things and people. Protected. That causes me anxiety, because away from the toxic s***, my relationships are great. Im always thinking about it and its nice to nail something that is untouched by the b*******. It changes my perspective of myself for the better. It is “blissfull”
All I want, is respect and comon decency. Its nice to for example to work at a place, where my job and the people there dont end up contaminated and I considered am a fool to everyone around me at a place I work that pays my rent, and my bills, because of a woman who is literally hunting for me and everything me for negative attention. Its not like I have many friends I can lean on, for the same reasons. Its nice to have common decency and respect because I think I do deserve that for what I gave you. You will never meet a guy like me who took that kind of abuse because he loved. Decency and respect. You brought out the worst in me. Thats not me. I would almost think you would have my back after crushing me like that… and and not with a knife either. I just want you to stay away from me and make an effort to not touch my life or the people in it in any way. Manipulation. Again, s**. Thats really easy for women, but you especially. You would do anyone. You don't equate love and s**. You swallowed me up without a second thought, and that was nice but it made me think “how does she know Im not crawling with disease?” I dont like that. I do, but not the idea of everyone getting it, but thats cool. You knew that and its why we aren't together any more. To your credit. After all those years. After you didnt need me any more.

You don’t and can’t love anyone. The worst thing I ever did was not f*** you. You better f*** a woman who is only in it for the s** or you are a dead man. She will haunt your a** and f*** every person you know including your dad and you dog, your first boss, your favorite primary school math teacher. She will give everything she never gave you, to everyone she meets, just because.