I wonder if this makes sense. My parents used to be very successful in China. They worked very hard and they earned lots of money etc. As a result, after

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I wonder if this makes sense. My parents used to be very successful in China. They worked very hard and they earned lots of money etc. As a result, after moving to a different country, they started enjoying life in this country. They stayed at home all the time and they are always free. As a consequence they put lots of attention on me as I am the only daughter in the family.
I feel very stressful because most of my international friends only have one parent at home and the other parent is at their home country, working for the entire family. They are not poor but they run huge business so yea. Compare to them, my life seems so perfect, but actually it is a burden.
Earlier this year I found out that I am gay and this is stressing me out. My parents have put so much effort in raising me up and providing me the best education and lifestyle but I am gay, it is going to disappoint them so much…
I know I have a very traditional Asian mindset but I feel so painful that I am not able to be “normal”. I know its my life but my own life still associate with my parents’ lives.
As a consequence I built an Utopia for myself. I surround myself with classical music. I used to read lots of manga but I broke my heart when I fell for another girl that loves manga too but she is not gay. I stopped reading manga and locked myself in the practice room all day to practice the violin.
It is so much pain to be gay, while you have loving but homophobic parents. My life is a mess right now because I want to live my own life yet I don’t want to disappoint my parents.

New Confession

Dalton, You know, it’s strange. Somebody else asked me if I was afraid today.
I am afraid.
I’m afraid of what happens when somebody pushes me too far. Somebody just like you. ‘Cause I know what happens next
I snap their fuckinn neck and shatter their skull .

Wade Garrett

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I have to admit that I love to flash my c*** to adult women, of any age actually. I flash my c*** in my car, on webcams or in hotel windows overlooking parking lots or beaches like in Florida. My c*** is slightly larger than “average” but certainly not huge. Two women have told me that my c*** is really hard. I believe that several women have seen me though none have reported me and that’s a good thing.

One time in Florida I was laying on the lounge with my c*** surreptiously sticking out the side. Across the deck was a beautiful black haired lady in a bikini. She had really b*******. She was wearing sunglasses and getting some sun. Her lounge was slightly elevated but I couldn’t tell if her eyes were open. If they were she would have seen my c*** which of course was really exciting me. We were like that for about 15 minutes when another lady approached her and said something. She sat up, raised her glasses and took a clear look at me. She then lowered her glasses and resumed her position. She didn’t do or say anything. The only thing she did was bend her knee blocking my view between her legs. I didn’t trust the other lady so I left right away. That lady really took it in stride. I often wonder if she was offended, neutral or excited.

One night I was cruising with my c*** in my hand looking for a flashing opportunity. Up ahead was a girl hitchiking. She was wearing a loose dress from what I could see in the headlights and she was perfect. I decided to offer her a ride with my c*** out. If she got in, great and if she did not that was cool. I pulled up beside her and she opened the door. When that happened the interior light came on. She could see my c*** but I was so excited that c** exploded out of my c***. It happened so fast that I reached over, closed the door and took off.

I often wonder what she thought. Oh yeah, I also j******* to those memories.