I just want to be left alone by you and everyone you know, and Get the respect I give you.

I don’t breathe a word about you to anyone ever. I basically want to forget it, leave it in the past, learn from my mistakes and move on, and you do thw same. I got tucked in that relationship and I wamt to move on and not have my life or whatever I happen to find to replace it, ruined by it.

But like I said too, I guess it up to me to keep things important to me close. Basically to myself. Only me. Even something as seemingly harmless as telling my glbrother a small piece of info can bring unwanted attention under the right circumstances. It’s a fact that you knew where I was. That’s all you needed. You meet someone from there, anyone, and there it is.

I wish you could at least understand, I don’t want to have anything to do with you, and anyone you know who dwells on it, that thing between you and I, it’s not their business. Now if you or they provoke something, that technically is dead. It’s dead, I see the whole thing as a complete disaster where there is absolutely nothing salvageable. So I’m trying to forget it. By provoking s***, these people are just keeping it alive. It was ugly. It deserves to dye.

It would be like me going to every single customer we have that knew you and just saying outlandish b*******. I don’t breathe a word about it to anyone you or your family knows. It’s psychotic.

If you don’t like the “abuse” or me being a nasty assshole to hammer it I to peoe heads, let it go. Don’t ever talk about it. But like I said par of it is me and keeping certain things I want to protect, to myself. Just where I work. That was literally all you needed, everyone knew me, and you creep your way back into it.

Also, don’t consider me writing it off as abuse either. If I am angry and really flat f****** tired of th seeping in to further ruin my life, that’s not abuse. And just to rub it in, that WAS a close one 🙂 that’s one, if you think that’s the only one, you have no idea. You made your choices. Do you remeber how cruel you were to me when you first really ended it? Those only few times we talked in the 6 no the after. That was some of the most hurtglfull s*** anyone ever dished to me. I didn’t show it to you, I was trying to not act clingy and that kind of thing, but the “love this man to pieces” thing and “he”s big” that s*** killed me like nothing ever. Nobody ever.

You hammered me into the ground good. I still tried for years with you and myself, pretty much more for that than anything, and I got nothing, except the cruelest beat down I have ever felt anywhere. It killed me. I can honestly say that, it killed me.

Did I deserve it? I don’t know. I don’t think so, but I mean, you walked away, you made your decisions, and you kicked my ads in such a way that I believed when I was to ally done in early 2012, it was dead. I helped ruin it by hanging on for so long. You could have right then changed things around, but you didn’t, and it was the end. Truly the end.

So if you don’t like the “abuse” now, forget it. Unprovoked, I will absolutely forget about you. You don’t want that though, do you? That’s too bad. Don’t ever abuse and negmlct a man you love and never want to lose like you did to me. You hear me? That’s common sense.