I’ve pushed people away simply because I didn’t want to text. And the thing is it’s not because I didn’t want to talk. It’s just that when it comes to writing, I have to think deeply and give 100% of my attention to it. Because if not I end up saying stupid s*** unintentionally. That and I’m a bit of a perfectionist, not with sentence structure per say, but with the quality of what’s been said. And I find myself writing text after text that I just scrap and before I know it I’ve spent 40 minutes trying to write one f****** reply. And it’s demoralizing, because then I don’t have time to fully do the s*** that I wanted to do. It’s a f****** curse is what it is. I wish could just brainlessly write s*** but for me it just doesn’t work that way.
