I’m a 22 year old gay male living in Texas and I don’t think coming out of the closet to my family would a good idea to begin with. I’m only gonna end up causing drama and possibly traumatize my parents.

They’ll force their religious beliefs onto me and force me to date a woman and give them grand kids. Who knows what type of f*** s*** they’ll do to me if they were to find out the truth about myself. I don’t want them all to make it into a huge deal and make things worse for me.

My family are fully unaware of my s********. My friends are the only people that know and thankfully, they don’t mind it. I also hope no one else ends up telling my family about it.

I kept my s******** as a deep dark secret because this is something that shouldn’t be discussed in the family and besides, I’m not one of those stereotypical flamboyant crazy gay guys you see in the news and in entertainment. I’m just a normal, average looking guy in person. Nothing special.

I sometimes have thoughts about moving somewhere far away from my family and live in a blue state where no one literally knows me but I don’t know how I’ll be able to pull it off if I’m actually going to do that. I don’t know any comfortable place to live or what type of job I’ll stick to in the future.

I hope I’m able to find love and settle down with a special someone someday but at the same time, I don’t know if that’ll ever happen.

If there’s one thing to be proud of is that at least I didn’t grew up in a extremist Muslim family. (I apologize for this to sound poor taste but it’s true that you can get killed in other countries for being gay and an atheist.)

I apologize for this post to be long and to sound all over the place and to sound like my English is terrible. I want to get all this off my chest.