You know,this feeling after you see a person you love hurt and after so long you decided to leave them because they actually hurt you and they are bad for you, and you have this new feeling about taking care of you. It not pain, its not just pain, its disapointment but its not, its stop feeling the need to always smile anymore, stop feeling anxious when you talk to someone you dont know, stop having a stomach ache every time you are supposed to feel stress. You start to think is there really a point going back to your previous self when it was you that put you in this situation. You just stop feeling that you failed yourself because you know now, things make sense. You see what is in front you and you undestand that some things you can understand them while others that you cant.You see there is no black and white just people that try to categorise things just to feel control. And you just make a path for yourself because now you know yourself youve seen your actions and there is no its not my fault choice. Im done romanticising situation. We are who are and we will be who we want to be even if we are broken or get lost on the way. The world doesnt f****** owe you anything just do whatever the f*** you want.