I was in class 8th when I transferred my school new school new life everything is going to be New.so that was my first when I saw him for the first time.there were many more children also one more girl a class senior to me my elder sister.my bad I didn’t noticed him but I know he was there and in the we all sat to the last long seat of the bus. One mistake that I regret now also he was my senior he was in the same class with girl at bus stop but different section,so I called him bhaiya ya I know it is freaking funny like really funny I know 😂😂
After that day we all chill together in bus except my elder sister after some months I realized I fell in love with that guy it’s kind of funny I know I even laugh on me such an idiot I was but that bhaiya wasn’t real but that love was or you can say is yes I passed out my 12ths recently and I love him now also but then I didn’t have the courage to tell him that I freaking love him when I was in 10th I made a decision that I’ll confess to him on his farewell as if he doesn’t love he won’t see my face again but I couldn’t because his accounts practical was pending you know we used talk a bit on Facebook when I was in 9th then we stopped I mean he deactivated his accounts my bus changed when I was in 10 because we shifted the only I was able to see him was assembly and then also I kept loving him without any contact and then he suddenly came on Instagram when it was about to end of his school life and my 11 we started talking again I was so happy and then his last day of the school came I really wanted to confess it I wrote it like 10 12 times and erased it and at the last I thought let’s just do that I 13th time I pressed that send button and there you go the mistake I was talking about he said he see me as her sister hahahaha I know it’s funny it’s freaking funny I loved him I love him and I won’t be able to forget him even if I try I can’t… after some months the girl who used come with us is kind of cousin of him and she was a great freind if mine but because if these things I got compartment in maths and there are many other things happened that year 11 was f****** hard for me,i forgot her birthday i felt guilty we used to talk on bus and all so I never asked her phone number so that day I asked one another freind who was friends with both of them but unfortunately she doesn’t have her number so she said I’ll take her number from him I was like it’s just number so said ok she said he didn’t have her number because of me I was so pissed of I went to his chats and started typing things like you don’t I get it even if you don’t like me a bit also then also it’s fine but you can’t steal my freind form me and I typed I don’t think so my feelings deserve this kind of value also and blocked him and then the other freind told me to unblock him ad he wants to talk with me I wasn’t doing that but a part of me wanted me to do so I did it I unblocked him he messaged me I didn’t know you were asking fir it and all firstly i was idiot I said sorry then I realized😂😂 he was fooling me nd started arguing and then he said ya you were the reason I didn’t want to give that number and blocked me I an still blocked a part of me still believes that he said those things because he wanted to be hated by me I don’t know why in starting of may of this year only he messaged me on Facebook congratulated me I said thanks asked him how are you he replied and done I miss the time when he didn’t don’t knew about my feelings I miss him that’s really stupid of me but I do and I can’t do anything I can’t message him even when I see him online I just open our chat see them and close it. Once when I was in 9 we were playing something acting game I was the villain he was hero he pulled my shirt and saying some dialogue my eyes were closed I didn’t wanted to make eye contact with him because it would be difficult fir me to see another when I have his eyes in front of me the most beautiful eyes he was an average looking person so I am I love him he did not I want to stop loving him but I can’t I don’t know what I can do I can’t cry I can’t laugh it’s been too long I haven’t cried even at the situation where I should. S*** happens and you have to move on but I can’t.I Love You