I have no idea what i’m doing with my life. lately i’m just out of focus. this is effecting everything, my studies, my relations with people. i always try to hide it and i cant talk to anyone about it, because i dont know what “it” is. i dno if im in the right major, and if im not its too late to change. and i dno why im not using my full potential though im aware that i can be 100 times more productive than i am now. i dont know what i want or who i want. and im scared if i keep rejecting guys because i dont think they’re my type, i’m scared that ill miss out on everything and end up alone. i still believe in true love and theres this person that will come and save me from all the horrible things ive been through before. i know this sounds silly but i just have no idea what to do or where to start from. i lost a lot of myself, and it all goes back to a broken heart. yes cliche excuse for everything, but its the truth.. time doesnt heal as quickly as i want it to.
Thank god for everything anyway, but i just want a clear mind…