I LIE TO MY FRIENDS AND I CANT STOP I ALSO IMAGINE MYSELF GETTING WITH OTHER GUYS AND EVEN GIRLS EVEN THO I ABSOLUTELY LOVE MY BOYFRIEND BUT I JUST WANT TO HURT SOMEONE (emotionally) BUT THEN AGAIN I HATE SEEING PEOPLE (like my friends or boyfriend) HURTING AND I CONSTANTLY WISH I DIED AND IT SCARES ME I HATE MY MOMS BOYFRIEND AND IM STARTING TO DISLIKE MY MOM AND MY GRANDMA I AM SO SOCIALLY INEPT THAT EVEN MY TEACHERS CONSTANTLY ASK “Are you okay” AND I AWNSER YES (lieeeeee) I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO I HAVE A PERFECT RECORD IN SCHOOL AND AT THE DOCTORS AND I HAVE BEEN TOLD I “Do not need mental help” BUT I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE IS CRASHING DOWN AND THAT I AM JUST A FAILURE

I just don’t know what’s wrong with me