i have never been someone’s best friend… and i know, hell do i know there are bigger s*** and actually important things going on in the world, that i’m f****** 21 and that i’m just being pathetic but at the same time it’s sad…i like to believe that i have friends and i guess they care for me but i feel so invisible, that if i ever leave or just disappear no one would notice or even if they do, they’ll forget about it…and yes this sounds so lamee but yes when i’m at uni, i talk with some people and i hang out with friends and that happend as well when i was at school but outside those places it seems to me that i never cross anyone’s mind and even though i reach for them i feel that they don’t care about what happens to me and i feel distant from them …
At school I had a few people really close but with time they walked away from me and i had tought of reachign out but what if it looks creepy after all this time? and i’m starting to think i’m the f****** problem! and God don’t even get me started with love or relationships i guess i’m not i’m not lovable.. like that freaking quote i’m a loveless monster.. geez i feel so dumb
If anyone took the time to read: thank you and sorry at the same time ..