Ever since I was little, like elementary school age, I have desperately wanted to be a mom. Most of my life goals revolve around having a happy family. As I’ve gotten older, I am currently 18, this desire has only grown. I get bouts where I want a baby so badly I will drag one of my old baby dolls out of storage to try and simulate the feeling of holding a child of my own. It’s also has caused me to develop a breeding/ impregnation kink. I feel weird about wanting a child so bad at such a young age, and have felt bad about it since middle school when I realized that most people don’t want a baby as badly as I do.
To make things even more complicated, I’m non-binary, so I feel almost guilty about wanting to be a mom, especially as I really want to breast feed my future child and get top surgery. I wish pregnancy and the more gentle, caring aspects of parenthood weren’t seen as things strictly for women. I really want to carry/ nurse my future children (not that parents that can’t do those things aren’t any less valid, they are just experiences I want to experience as I am lucky enough to do so) but I don’t want people taking my gender identity less seriously just because I want to have a bio-child in the way that I am capable.
In conclusion my desire for a baby is something I have struggled with for a while now, and needed to get off my chest.