recently I was asked to make a business decision without a lot of facts and information it was hard to do that. in hindsight now I realize that was much I did not know about certain personalities and company directors and people at the top who let me down many times on significant business decisions each time I placed my trust on group choices, or was blinded to information that was vital to me to make informed choices. its rather hurtful to find out I trusted someone who failed to tell me the truth about things I needed to know then later I found out the president of this company was plotting against me behind my back, making claims that I was up to the job and that I was making wrong choices when he failed to inform me yet was telling others he was.

the indignant way he said “sorry” to me through a suited man was rather impolite when I had no knowledge of the facts and my job title never stated that I stick my neck out to do things that would effect peoples personal lives. I felt very angry at him for letting me down.

I have been so cheated by people. last time he summons me to his companies office I rejected the thought and stayed home for the day. he called me a “lazy boy” but I found him and his wife to be very destructive to the real claims and ethics of his so called company.

I feel bitter because of this old man lying to me, lying about me, and how it cost me my career and love life.

as if he is god and has the right to judge me. I want to kick his b*** now. and I resent his silent little helpers and how they work with deceptive ways.

truth is I don’t have all the facts still to make a choice and the clock is ticking. if I should bother myself to call him later to set up a meeting, I wonder if he would resist the idea again or what does he really want anyway? he said he will call me but then he constantly expects me to run after him and be the one to call him.

we disagreed last meeting and I feel that will impact on everything now.

omg what should I do?