I am recovering from anorexia and bulimia which I developed about 3 years ago. physically, I’m doing well and am at a decent weight, my eating’s not bad either, some days are better than others, but overall, I am sticking to my meal plan. My family and friends are proud of me for coming this far, and I am too, but I feel there is still an anorexic part of me lingering in my head. I often scour the internet looking for pictures of extremely emaciated anorexics, stories about anorexia, or simply people or even pets who are abnormally thin. Recently, I stumbled across pictures of greek tv presenter Nana karagianni, which triggered the absolute s*** out of me. When I do this, I feel perverse almost, and it leads me to think about sel-harm or even thoughts about suicide.

I’m not even sure I had an Ed, I only severely underate for a few months, 5 perhaps, eating around 1,000-1,500 fpor the majority of the time. I’m so confused, I don’t know what to think anymore.