I have an addictive personality and I hate it. But I honestly can’t help myself. I have little to no willpower. Not over any extended period of time that is. Drugs and alcohol are the two big things obv. Like I can go a week clean and then I falter again and go on a several month tirade where I’m just completely fucked up whenever possible. I feel an extreme need to be on something/not sober. Because being drunk high or both aka twisted, is just so f****** awesome. I honestly need rehab but I’ll never admit it publicly and I’ll probably die young due to my volitive life style. Oh well. #yolo