I just had a mental break down and f****** scribbled all over my arms with almost every color of permanent markers i have. Then i damn bit myself all over my arms and punched myself so hard that im probably going to have bruises. I dont have any razor blades or knifes so i couldn’t cut myself but i bet that if i did id be bleeding all over my g******* bed right now. Theres so much s*** going on in my life right now and to top it all off im almost 100 % sure I gave myself anxiety and insomnia. I just wish my mom would leave me the f*** alone shes such a b**** I hate her so much she just keeps nagging and bugging and hating on all the things I love and just overall being a pain in my a**. I still love her but I sure as hell dont respect her. Shes done nothing to deserve my respect. The only thing nice shes really done is get me food and take me to a movie every once in a while but I dont care about that s***. I dont want that s***. What I want is some g******* love. What I want is to be happy. and so far she hasnt given me any of that. f*** me man. F***.