I want to keep this short. Now, I’ve met this guy online about half a year back. We met in a random public roleplay chat as I rp-ed as my OC (original character) while he played a rather popular one, Ben drowned. Yes, I’m a Creepypasta fanatic! We got along almost instantly with common interests and similar roleplay styles! Then we just left that public chat after a couple if weeks to do one on one. At this point, I only considered him a friend and nothing more. And I’m sure he felt the same back then. As we’ve roleplayed more and more, we decided to try a rather more mature roleplay then usual. And it surprisingly wasn’t awkward after that! Now, I ship my character with the character his sona is. He isn’t the creator, though. But recently, I noticed I’m not the same when I’m texting or calling him. I think about him constantly. I wake to my mind automatically thinking about him, to when I fall asleep to the bits if pieces if his voice echoing in my head. I’ve liked my faur share of liking men bit this. This is something I’ve never felt. The only problem is the fact that I don’t know our relationship staus. We’ve said ‘I love you’ very many times but we played them as jokes but there is always that tiny sude if me secretly hoping he was speaking his true thoughts through jokes. He has mentioned one time as a joke that we would one day meet and live together. Though, from what I read and felt with my gut when reading those messages, I think a small side of him really meant it! From what I’ve concluded throughout the months, there is a small possibility he’s implied we we’re in a relationship. The thing is, is the fact that what if I’m wrong? What if I ask him if we’re together or call him babe or boyfriend and he completely denies me and shuts me down? What if I ruin my relationship with him?! My mind says to keep quite and that I would never find something this piwerful again but my heart is still in painful urge to find out and know for sure! In summary and onto my actually question, … What should I do in this situation?
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First get a grammar checker. Your spelling and typos are pretty horrendous. Second find out if he’s close enough to get together with and meet irl. Secondly, do some google chats with the camera and talk to each other about serious shit and find out if you’re compatible. If you’re younger than 25, then keep it simple. Sexual is alright. You need to meet a lot of people usually until you find the right person. Take your time getting to know someone unless you can keep it purely physical, but MOST people can’t. MOST people fall in love or feel they’re falling in love. Maybe he is the right one. And maybe he’s the right one for now and not forever. There’s an infinite number of possibilities. Find out what you both want. Be honest. Be open. Be vulnerable. Be careful. Be strong. Be courageous.