I’m questioning my gender. I’m biologically female. For as long as I can remember, I’ve wanted to be a boy for as long as I can remember but when I talked to my mom about it, she told me it was a phase and that all girls feel that at one point. And well, I’ve been feeling it for 15 years. I don’t like my chest and privates. I find mine disgusting. But part of me doesn’t want to get rid of them. Part of me is saying that my chest is really big, I should be grateful. I have a lot of curves and I’m ok with them because if I take testosterone then it’ll balance it better, I think. I feel like getting rid of my body is a waste. But that’s the thing about it, I like feminine clothes, I like how they fit, I like the style. I feel more comfortable in men’s clothes. I think I might like the women’s clothes because people always complemented me and made me feel better about myself. I don’t know. It makes me feel happy when people call me Nick and when people use male pronouns. I don’t know… I feel like I’m crazy.