I was never invited to the junior prom. a girl I knew who was far less attractive then me got a nice date but as a result I was pushed out. all she ever did was flaunt herself at me as if she was a lot more then what she really was. there was no room for me to have my own individuality or identity with Diana in 1977/78 she was not going to allow me to have my own individuality or friends, not one invite by a young boy to the prom.

DO YOU KNOW HOW THAT FEELS? PERHAPS YOU MIGHT LIKE TO TRY IT S***!

I realized 10 or so years later that I didn’t exist and then the papers said I didn’t exist. and people wonder why I hid away in my room. no one letter to say hello. and here I was supposed to do it all and I had bad lapses of memory that if you only knew the painfulness of that, and trying to survive.

IF YOU HAD JUST COMUNICATED WITH ME NORMALLY AND POLITELY NONE OF THIS WOULD HAVE HAPPENED. IF YOU HAD JUST ASKED ME WHAT WAS WRONG? OR COME AND TALKED TO ME PERSONALLY WITHOUT THE CRAP IN 1978 OR EVEN LATER.

I WAS A REASONABLE CHILD UNDERNEATH. BUT NO ONE SAW THAT. NO ONE EVER SAW ANY QUALITIES IN ME AT ALL.

FACELESS LIKE AN ASPIE AUTISTIC FACELESS ARMISH DOLL!!! THAT IS HOW YOU CAN THINK OF ME!!!