I think I do remember meeting you for one afternoon for tea but I can not remember your name even. I am so sorry but I can’t even remember that. this is what I am talking about how my memory is so bad from something. its so upsetting. I do try to remember. I thought I met you at the dentists. I thought you were an assistant for a dentist and then I thought I met you in 1988 but that can’t be. or on the bus, its so hard to tell with my dumb brain. its so confusing. I couldn’t tell you all I had wrong back then there is no way you would have been able to listen. if I had known it was you I would have told you but I would have felt embarrassed anyway. I am tired of running away scared and I am constantly frozen by fear. I am sorry.