I had my birthday last month and intentionally (like every year before) I deleted my birthday info on my Facebook. Turned out very little amount of friends that remembered. And most of them were not the ones that I regard as closest ones. Turned out most of my ‘closest ones’ forgot.

I’ve kept staying cool about it. And in fact, I did stay cool. I mean, I was really happy on my birthday that my boyfriend greeted me around midnight and kissed me and so on. I was also surprised by the facts that.. wow, there were some people that I never expected to remember remembered! I was grateful for everything that I got. I never thought about what I didn’t get.

What perhaps it’s just a time bomb. After staying cool for over a month, here comes the disappointment. I expected my closest ones to remember. I mean, that was my special day. I deserved to be treated good that day. I deserved your wishes, your calls, your messages. Cause the wishes, calls and messages from YOU guys were what I waited the most! I wanted to know if a year from now you’ll all be still around me, supporting me, asking for helps, wishing for good days. But, having experienced this, I’m just not sure anymore.

This may sound I exaggerate things. But, come on! You’ve always had me as the understanding one, keep saying “it’s okay, no problem”, but really, haven’t it really popped in your mind what means the most for me??

But I guess, what disappoints most is this: I feel that you’re very important to me cause even though some of you are living very far apart, I still count you as my significant ones, my most important ones. I’ll never forget your birthday, or the day you’ll marry, or the day you met your girl/boy cause I’m happy to be part of your life. I’m happy to be ears for you all to speak to and tell stories to. I’m happy to wish you happiness. I want you to be happy on your birthday.

Now.. I start to think that you guys don’t even have the time to be part of mine or even care about what makes me happy. And that’s exactly what disappoints me..