Dear husband that broke us

I want you to know that I still love and that I wish we could have had a different ending. When we got married I really did expect to spend the rest of my life with you and I really did intend to make it work. It was supposed to be until death do us part.

Unfortunately your actions have made that future impossible. The way you have behaved and what you have done is not something I can live with for the rest of my life. I cannot do it and I don’t think this was something anyone would contemplate before they got married.

I cannot ever trust you again and I cannot ever allow you back into my life in any way other than as my son’s father. The hurt you have caused goes too deep and the impending doomed future completely prevents us from having a future.

Because of your actions you have made it impossible for us. You have made every single dream that we ever had turn into a lie and farce.

So, while I will always love you, I cannot be with you. Not that you even care because you seem to have already moved on. That alone makes me wonder just how much of the last 7 years was a lie.

Everything you ever said to me and every time you said you loved me has now been called into question. Knowing what I know now has affected and infected every memory we ever made. It all feels like a complete lie.

So now I say goodbye to you and I say goodbye to the future that we could have had. I go now knowing that I really am alone in life and that even the person who took a vow to never hurt you will eventually do just that.

The betrayals that I have suffered will always make it impossible for me to trust anyone again. And as a result I know I will be alone for the rest of my life.

So thank you for dooming me to the next 50 years of my life being a bitter, cynical hag who cannot ever be in another relationship.

Goodbye.