Embarrassed because I’m supposed to be a Christian I do love the Lord but I’m still human and I get super jealous I had a thought of a criminally insane murdering my daughter because someone told me she want to be with someone I loved I also have wet dreams about lesbianism it makes me feel embarrassed because I’m not gay but in the dreams I like them and I have like a some kind of spirit that’s in me that makes me feel like I want to be with a girl but my mind and my soul does not want to be and I’m tired of this demon it feels like I admit I have anger issues for any Christian out there reading this this is My Confession I am embarrassed about it I felt jealous insanely jealous and thought Creed thoughts I feel like I’m going to be left behind if I don’t change my ways I keep having dreams about the rapture wish pretty unbelievable two different kinds or resurrections but it was like a Leonardo Di Vinci painting where God and Jesus touching hands together and people just started getting resurrected across the sky from all around the world you can see it as possible I don’t know if there’s a warning anyway I don’t know if it’s a warning or what but I’m ashamed of my actions I hope that I can be forgiven cuz I forgive her I also had a fling this weekend with an X who I was in love with at one time I did it three times in one night it was good I liked it and I asked him to do it again he said he doesn’t want to be with me like that he loves me but he loves me as a friend and just want to sometimes have benefits but I know I’m supposed to abstain but deep inside I want to maintain I’m ashamed of my lustful desires I pray God will take away these lustful desires because they are burning up inside of me sometimes and there’s one side of me that doesn’t want you but I guess that’s all about Galatians 5 alright y’all have a good day

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