if you scroll down on here you’ll be able to see my past confession on this topic. but im bored and something else happened so im going to tell it all again. and i don’t care how long this will be. so i got my first job. and im a very shy person and it takes me a while to get used to places and to actually be myself most of the time. so on the first day which was just training i was so nervous and just very quiet. which is why i would get it if someone thought something was wrong with me. so a guy from the back where he works comes up to me and asks me if i was okay. i reply yes and in my head i thought it was very sweet that he asked that. he’s only 3 yrs older than me so don’t think he’s a creep. anyway. every now and again i have to go in the back to either put my stuff up or to give them things ive made specifically for them that they need to use for their job. and so me and this guy- we will call him H- so me and H have some very brief conversations while i do these things. and i have to admit he’s attractive and very tall and im pretty short so it’s kinda intimidating how tall he is but i like it. anyway, in the beginning of me working there, he used to call me dear and sometimes darling. the first time he called me that i looked at him strangely and i guess he saw because he explained that he calls a lot of people that. but the entire time ive worked there up until now, not once have i heard him say that to anyone else. my job requires non slip shoes and i thought mine were but ive almost slipped before and i was in no way going to fall it was just my foot moving and i over react over everything so i was like “woahhh” lmao. and i didn’t know he was behind me and he very lightly and sweetly put his hand on my side and said, “you okay?” and i replied yes even if my heart was racing and i was blushing dramatically. fast forward some time, now im very weak. like even smaller girls can do things i can’t. so i have to ask for help a lot and i go to H because i talk to him. and when he sees me doing something on my own that i did ask him before he says “good girl” now it could most definitely just be playfully but omg my heart can’t take it. now these past few days, i don’t know where he’s coming from, but he walks into work in a f****** suit and we lock eyes when he comes in and i look away almost instantly and guys, he’s so beautiful. like i just can’t. today it happened again. and i had to just stare because i couldn’t look away from him. like i just always want to be around him and i just want him to hold me and call me by the nickname that no one else calls me like he does and- i really have it bad, don’t i?
