I used to love a guy. we were university friends. but he was seeing another girl. she was 5 years older than him but he had promised her that they would get married. I used to hate her so much because I was jealous of her. I really wanted him to leave her because I thought he was too good for her (and because i wanted him for me). They stayed together for 1 1/2 years.
I never told him I liked him, i just acted as a close friend, but i never said any single bad thing about the girl.

Lately, he broke up with her, and he started seeing another girl, younger than him this time. and they are planning to get engaged soon, their parents met and all that stuff. Now i hate him, especially after i saw how his ex went into depression after he left her. I cant even act as his friend, i cant talk to him as i used to. I dont trust him anymore. This is making me feel so bad. I liked him and trusted him and i even accepted to be only his friend. but i cant do that anymore. I was so disappointed with what he did with his ex, and i think he’s not trustworthy.
I am afraid to have this happen to me again: trust a person that i shouldnt trust, fall in love with someone who doesnt deserve…