sick of falling for guys that have zero interest in me.

i got used recently, much to my dismay. slept with a guy for a few weeks, we chatted every day, random texts – you name it. but of course, he stopped talking to me and i realised he had no interest from then on.

took me a painful while to get my head around, days of limbo, thinking about him constantly, hating myself for getting attached and letting this happen to me AGAIN, waiting for him to say something.. anything.

nothing.

i decided to go out and get drunk with some friends, meet some new people. move on with my life and have fun without him. then that night, i met this guy, and it seemed we were both attracted to eachother as we had a lot of chemistry… then we kissed.

we kissed a lot. it was nice. he even wanted to take me out on a later date for a drink (it never happened) but it was nice. it seems like things happen for a reason. this guy showed me the way out of that limbo and i have never looked back ever since.

ironic how the only way out of being depressed about one guy is to let myself get into another situation by another. it worked though.

i just really like this other guy now… wah. i went a whole freaking year without being interested in anyone and just concentrating on my work. and then this double whammy happens. *sigh*

i need more self confidence and need to concentrate on my life.

is this a freaking joke!? life is confusing and cruel sometimes.

all the flowers in time bend towards the sun. i know you say that theres no one for you.. but here is one