I hate myself so much that it’s suffocating. Everyday I want to kill myself. Every time she tells me to kill myself. She said she’d slit my throat next time. I try to avoid her as best as possible but we live in the same house. She is double my age but almost half my height and half my weight. She is the one person I fear in this whole world. She made me realise that I am useless,fat,ugly and just all round horrible. She makes my boring life in this house amusing. She forces me to act with my eyes peeled open. She attacked me with a hoover as soon as i cam out the bathroom. She tried to break into the bathroom whilst i was using it. She is the devil in my life…yet I don’t hate her. I hate me because I am at fault. My existence causes pain to my peers. She teaches me new things like death and self reflection. She makes me see the true ugly me. She Is My Sister.