My first gf. I tried my best to keep her happy , and she was but in few months our relationship she realises that she isnt in love with me but with her ex. Broke me shattered me , but me being an arrogant adamant manipulative SOB , didnt show anything on outside. Started drinking etc . Her ex wasnt her bf as such but her best friend. She lost her friend to me.
I did everything to help her out to get her out of depression , never for once caring about my own. Noone even have any idea how sad im or broken im. I dont show , i always mask it with my sarcasm. I got her firends , i talked to people to talk to her look after her , she didnt even know that i did it. I got her firends , i tried to get her psychiatric help , talked to her family and made her better finally. But im not. Im not over her , i feel like ending my life once and for all. Im losing my mind. I really dont know what to do. She continuously pressurises me, emotional blackmail , fights etc , i dont say anything to anyone not even now , even now im writing this anonymously. I dont know what to do. Its killing me. I cant take this stress anymore. She is the first person i have ever loved as gf . I don’t know if i would ever be able to love someone again . Its not a confession, but i feel a bit relieved saying allthis , makes me a little lighter.