I would like to ask first, how can you tell someone is your bestfriend? I actually have 1 bestfriend at a time. But I’m close to everyone. Sooo, I am close to someone who I always go everyday. We are staying in the same place because we are working in other country. Before we decided to stay in the same house, we used to go out every night to release the stress from work. Drinking tea and eating is what we always did. We were University classmates but we’re not as close as we are now. As time goes by, we just became too close and I think I relied so much on her on almost everything. I hate that she spoiled me for my cannot-be-understood attitude. I cannot admit that she is becoming my bestfriend because I told her before I cannot be bestfriends with other people except my old bestfriend. Her boyfriend is visiting her for a month. Of course, I dont want to interfere. But I felt so alone. I wasn’t ready to stand on my own. I used to go home waiting for your friend or have someone waiting for you because you will eat and decide what food to eat. I’m honestly hurt because I relied so much on everything. I honestly don’t know what to do every time I go home. So, I choose to go out and meet my other friends.