I`m a very hateful person. I`ve had several boyfriends, but i`ve grown to hate all of them eventually. I get paranoid. Although i have no evidence of them cheating, i`m always sure they are. They hate me, they must. Wich leads me to hate them. I`d get abusive. Making them feel like s*** makes me happy. Why do i do this? How do i stop being so paranoid?
