I am going through awful depression and ups and downs in mood swings. I know I need help in a way that a anti-depression pill can’t fix, in the way that a good friend or hug or a even a nice boyfriend and s** could bring. a job may help down the track. I have given up my college course as I just could not keep going with the depression I feel with having cancer and other health problems. I feel a weak link but I had to let it go. I don’t know if I could enjoy myself out socially right now. I feel a criminal but I am a victim. I hate the way people are demanding me to leave this or that and trying to control me. she said “thankyou” well, that just confused me more. I can’t work with her as I am so ill she reminds me of the blonde woman who was stalking me. who is winning out of all this. f***! give me a break please. and stop making me feel like a criminal when I am a genuine lady of some mid life youthfulness still hanging on there and shy and fearful, but not not not a criminal. yet I hide away like a scaredy cat.