My only “relationship” was when I was 15 with a 15 yo girl that lived 200 miles away. Other than that, I’m still a virgin, yet to have a true kiss with a girl and never had a girlfriend since… I was either too socially awkward, or the few times that I went on dates, I was too scared to make the first move since it wasn’t until a few years prior that I learned I had HORRIBLE misconceptions about women and was deathly afraid of making the first move at the wrong time.
Ever since a friend pointed out how old I was and still a virgin, I am so deeply ashamed of it that I have created elaborate back stories about my past with women just to at least keep some of my credibility with other people.
Now that I’ve lost 70 lbs and attended self-help seminars, I have the confidence but not the means. I lost my car (in surburban LA you’re SCREWED), I hardly have any friends due to my social awkwardness, and my paycheck is only enough for food, rent, my phone and $50 extra. Unless I can find a sugar momma that doesn’t mind the McDonald’s Dollar Menu for my first date, I’m screwed.
Oh, and I’m 27 now and don’t see any feasible way out of this rut.