I have lived a life of auto-e***** s** and just find it hard to get into a relationship. recently I wrote to a witch hunt officer and told him that due to s***** abuse as a child, I have struggled in enter into a relationship. I can’t seem to find a proper love life. I guess I was stupid thinking it would work out. I mean, I should have known it was too good to be true having a nice guy hold me in his arms, right. then it went sour. but now all I have is auto-e***** s** and the only difference to my childhood is that I am not holding back from insulting people. years ago I did not do that a lot. I used to say little and had the occasional physical fight. right now I would love to physically fight especially with the people who hurt me.
my doctor said that “what you learnt from a young age is that you can’t trust people” what chance does a little kid have if a grown man gets shocked by war or ptsd then, its the same for kids who face s***** assault and abuse young. he kept saying to me “you know its not your fault” that was something others hardly ever did.
is there a chance for a normal life or is this normal now?