I’ve never told this to anybody, I think I never even admitted it to myself. When I was around 8 years old I was molested, my cousin did it. He was only 4 years older than me. I neved understood what happened. I simply did what he asked me to. My older brother found us and he told me to never be close to him again. I couldn’t tell this to anyone because I felt guilty about it, I felt disgusted. I wish it never happend to me. I used to think it wasn’t a big deal. I never really stopped to think about it, cause it really made me sick. But now I understand that that was so wrong and so mean in many ways that I just needed to let it out. I hate that part of me, because everytime I let a boy touches me, I feel like my whole body is dirt.