Dear God,

Let me start by saying “I love you with all capabilities of love I have”.
What i mean by this is as per my understanding that love is based on one’s own ability to Love.

There are very famous big devotees of you like mira , parsuhram , bharav etc .. they all have incredible capabilities to love and they loved you immensely. I, on the other hand, have limited capabilities .. I love you immensely with
what all i have, but maybe no compare with all other devotees like you have

I now wonder that you provide your blessing on all devotees, but I want now to question you why did you curse me?
You cursed me to marry a girl who is not the right fit for me as well as my family.

I am scared of her and her parents.
I cant control her actions, her swered thought process, her shouting, mad behavior etc …
I cant see why my parents need to be troubled by this decision when it was you who took this decision for me
If I divorce her, she will take all that I have, my parent’s property, my next 7 years of life. help me decide if
it is worth all the efforts

I should not worry as I consider you supreme and believed in you that whatever you had ordered me will be right
There were reality checks every time (screaming/cheating / argues /disrespect) etc. but I have blind trust on
your verdicts

Now, if this is not a curse then i could not understand the complete picture . How will this fit in good for me?
Dear God, give me strength, courage and your guidance in life.
Everyone withdraw his/her strengths after tough times, but this never seems to end.